sleep deprivation & pain
Well for someone who used to sleep the clock round i'm not doing too bad, i'm managing on about 3 hours sleep a night.....I can't lie flat on my back, or my sides so i'm sleeping in a kind of propped up/sat up fashion with a ripping, burning pain going through my back.
I know i sound like i'm moaning, but I think after the major surgery i had last week i'm entitled to a little moan....the pain i'm having is now more or less constantly there, it's a dull ache/tightening pain from my shoulders down to my stomach.
Those wonderful opiate drugs have also slowed me right down in the toilet department, so i feel all bloated and yuck too.
The biggie is the lack of sleep, that's starting to show now, yesterday i cried several times for nothing at all other than i could cos i was that exhausted and today apart from going to the hospital and going to the loo i've stayed in bed. I need to learn to listen to what my body is telling me to do and that is rest.
After today's appointment i now only have dressings on my back, and one boob....not bad going for a week's healing! Hopefully on Thursday, i'll be dressing free and maybe not feel as tight!
I have a meeting with Mr Ghosh again on Thursday to discuss results from the sentinal/lymph node removal during surgery, these results should determine whether or not i need chemotherapy, so not particularly looking forward to Thursday, but at least i'll know a definate next stage of treatment by Thursday night.
I'm now in bed watching Scooby Doo with Taya, so i'll update you all on Thursday after my appointment.